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If I could have saved all those heart wrenching demolitions it would have scared everything out of me. One day I couldn’t be hearing about my friend’s death and on another day speaking to the most dangerous of all, a loner. To tap the truth out of me and putting me in a suffocating trap, there seemed no escape for me. A loner can never stand one of his/her kind. The ground is shaking underneath both of them. Waiting for each other’s turn to be gulped by the explosion. The desire to be captured, possessed and controlled is a taste that is far too spiteful. Yet, running behind half naked truth would leave no stone unturned. In the pitch black background of lies and double standards, wall to wall there is no corner for comfort. Insects crawling to build, to prey and move on. Where do you stand a chance? Look into this mirror, parallel and opposite. Why do we think that they would meet? I could only be mercury to a standing glass to reflect a life. Today I closed my ears to a ringing bell. Otherwise I couldn’t be smiling in the street. Alone in a framework which does not fit me at all I twist and turn. I hope you are reading me. It’s clear by now, what is wrong! Two face. Two face. We have sold this world. Together. But now we fall!

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